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I'm a happy chappy. I've had a good week. Last week was long and slow and boring with no motivation and a lack of smiles. This weeks has been varied, it's gone quickly and lots has come out of it.

Thursday was As level results day. It also happened to be the same day I had a course for work so when everyone found out their results, I was sat in a room listening to some old guy waffle on about common sense. I could have rung the school but I couldn't stand the thought of someone reading my results to me! I went in at the end of the day and had to painfully wait while the teacher searched through every list trying to find my name.

I'll be honest I was expecting the worst, I'm aiming for As but was expecting Ds and Es. In the end I got AAB (As in Physics and Biology and B in Chemistry) which I was pretty chuffed with :) I'll have to resit the B which seems pathetic but I really do need an A to be a vet! As for the A in physics, that's a miracle! I cant wait to see my cocky teacher who told me I would never get an A however hard I worked.

As for the rest of the year group, there's a lot of disappointment. I've never heard so many Us and Es going round the place, it's mental. Thank God for resits!

Hope you're all good you were pleased with any results you've got recently :)

Thanks for reading,

Georgina xx

Churlish May

Ok, I now it's a few days late but HAPPY NEW YEAR!

I will soon be doing a post on resolutions but I am very busy at the mo with revising and sitting on my arse, feeling bad for not revising. January exams, bad times.

I'll be back soon!
Georgina xx

Somedays

I'm having such an FML day. Science all day- it makes me feel stupid, I just don't get half of the stuff we're supposed to get and teacher's frustration doesn't help. I also have a habit of embarrassing myself. In one lesson a guy asked me a question and I went bright red. Don't get me wrong, I am in no way shape or form remotely attracted to him, he's a creep! But just because people were staring at me I suddenly got really embarrassed and went beetroot. The harder I tried to be normal the more fucking red I went -.- I'm going red now just thinking about it, CRINGE. And now he probably thinks I fancy him eve though he's about 2ft tall.I went home for 5 mins after school, made a phone call that lasted 10mins longer than it should have, meaning I practically ran to work, realising half way I didn't have my swimming costume (I work in a swimming pool as a helper and have to wear shorts, a t-shirt and a swimming costume is, of course, an essential -.-) I didn't have time to go back so I rushed there and ran through the park to the pool desperate to be on time, of course they didn't appreciate my efforts. I was then told I could go 5mins early as they didn't need me, sounds nice but I felt so rejected, it pissed me off as I had to just get out te pool and leave in front of everyone. After all this I really wanted a lift home as I was so pissed off, but no, my parents don't answer their phones. I was on the verge of tears after such a shit day when I realised I was walking through the muddiest part of the park that was completely flooded. FML. I just burst int tears, shoved my iPod in and walked home.

Georgina x

I Want It All

Right now, I want to be a geek. I really really want to work hard, I don't care if I don't go out at the weekend, I don't want to be behind. A-levels are really hard and all I can think of is that if I don't work and get the right grades, then that's it. It's all over. I really would do anything to be a vet but I know it won't just come to me. You know when you're so passionate about something, but it's so far away and everything uncertain? It's horrible.
Georgina x

Put The Book Back On The Shelf

I apologise for this week's poor blogging, I'm tired and busy and generally stressed. Sixth form really isn't that great, I have loads of work already and that's on top of being a busy person and having a job. I will update you at the weekend but for now, I hope you're all ok and please bear with me while I get this week over and done with :)
Georgina xx

Asleep on a Sunbeam

I had my first day of sixth form on Friday (we had one day then the weekend which seems really pointless!) It's pretty much the same as my secondary school but on a different site. So we have the same teachers and most of the same people (apart from the 50 new ones) so there wasn't much to be worried about but I was still nervous.

We don't have any uniform or dress code so outfits are another thing to stress over! I went to H&M on Thursday to get a few things, just so I felt like I had something new! I got a long grey cardigan, a stripey long vest top and this...
This stripey top was £7.99, the sleeves are tighter than they look so it's a bit more shapely! I wore it on my first day with grey skinny jeans and colourful sandals (with a necklace and my bag so it looked more interesting!) Sorry for the first face- very mardy.

I'm actually a bit nervous about going back tomorrow, my timetable's horrible- I'm doing physics, biology, chemistry and French so I have a week full of hard work which I'm not looking forward to! I just hope I enjoy it and stick to my plan to work hard :/

Thanks for reading :)

Georgina x

P.S. I had a haircut a few weeks ago and now have a side fringe- I rarely post pics of myself so you wouldn't have seen it yet :)

I Found A Whistle

I have been very neglectful to you all in the past week so I thought I'd do a quick (although it will probably take me ages) catch-up post.

Friday- I worked at the cattery in the morning and got paid :D (I went there for three mornings on work experience and at the end she gave me 50 quid, which was unexpected but very welcome!) In the evening I got the train to London on my own and met my uncle and Euston station, he took me to their house then he and my aunt went out for a meal, leaving me to look after my three cousins :)

Saturday- All 6 of us travelled across London on the tube, by foot and by taxi eventually getting to London zoo :D We spent the day there then went out for a Chinese in the evening, to congratulate me on my GCSE results which was very nice!

Sunday- One of the kids had rugby so me, my aunt and the two girls went for a walk and picked lots of blackberries to make an apple and blackberry crumble. We came home and had a lazy day, playing on the Wii and baking! In the evening we all watched Terminator Salvation which was surprisingly good even though I haven't seen the first 3 films!

Monday- Two of the kids were back at school so my aunt, the youngest and I went for a coffee before dropping me off at the tube station. I got the 45min tube then the train home. In the evening I had work at the swimming pool which was a bit of a bore but never mind!

Tuesday- I had enrolment day at sixth form, it made me nervous but it was good to see everyone. In the evening me and some friends cycled to a nearby village to my friend's house as her parents were away. We just hung round and watched TV then Kill Bill (the boys' suggestion!) which was actually quite good! We all stayed over, watched Wild Child in the morning then cycled home :)

Wednesday- It was my best friend's birthday so I came home and had a shower before gong to her house to give her my present (MGMT tickets for me and her- can't wait!) I worked at the pool for a few hours then went back to her house to have a shower before going out for a meal with about 10 of us which was really nice.
Thursday- Today I was supposed to get up early to go shopping with my friend but I got phone call from her at 1 when I was still in asleep (oops!) saying she was outside my house and apologising because she was late! I got up and we went shopping for about an hour. I had work again and came home to sort everything out for sixth form which starts tomorrow! I'm really nervous, I still don't know what to wear and if I have the right stuff but oh well, I just hope I wake up in the morning!!

Thanks for reading :) Georgina xx

Hate people who think their life is a drama

Yer this title is a bit hypocritical...I do hate people who think their lives are dramatic, I don't believe I am one of those people, but I do think we all have things to complain about however lucky we are and I choose to vent through the medium of blogging :) Here goes...

Agitation. That seems to be all I feel at the moment. Everything just pisses me off and thinking about doesn't help much either. Huh. I keep meaning to update this blog and I should be a bit more positive but right now is the time for ranting and moaning, sorry guys.

Ok the first one- exams. Yer we all have them, well most of us, so you feel the pain. It seems to just take over...every happy thought is drowned in the dreaded 'r' word.
(I've just realised the girl in the photo is drawing but let's pretend it's maths :P)

Clothes...Ok I know these complaints are so petty..I'm a bad person for getting stressed over clothes but they seem to be all I think about. Because summer's starting and my wardrobe consists of a few pairs of jeans, a variety of hoodies and plain t-shirts, I'm getting desperate. I just dream of floral dresses, sunglasses and denim shorts...

My hair. It's never been right, but now it's just boring I suppose. I try to do stuff with it but it doesn't wish to cooperate. I used to have it really short when I was little so now I'm obsessed with growing it and even though it's not far past my shoulders I don't wanna have it cut...however out of control it is.

This is the real agitator (if that's a word) Noise. Petty but boy does it get to you. Being at home all day doesn't help and the fact that my dad decided to hire a friggin cherry picker to do 'work on the house' halfway through my GCSEs...so drills and hammers it is for me.

Sleep. The old body clock's pretty fucked up again. I go to bed at 2-3 in the morning and get the rents coming in my room at 9am telling me not to waste the day and that I have work to do. Cheers.
(I love the sofa in the picture below <3)

Braces- small but friggin mighty. I hate the bloody things, they cause me nothing but pain and I've just been told my 2 baby teeth, which should be long-gone, have to be pulled out -.-
Family, who needs 'em? Yes they are being nice...but overly nice as if to compensate...I dunno what for, I suppose they saw me drifting a bit. But I want to drift I don't want to be wrapped in cotton wool. I just don't get them and they don't get me.

Again, I am a horrible person for complaining about this, please forgive me. Food, I dunno, I'm just gaining a lot of weight at the moment. I've always been really skinny and want to stay that way but boredom transfers to hunger and I pile of the pounds. It does get me down.
Thanks for reading, I hope you're all well and I don't bring you down with my meaningless non-problems... Have a good week, let's hope for some sun :)

Georgina xx

Simple

I've had a busy week, a stressful week, a week of ups and downs and highs and lows. I was supposed to finish my art this evening, and now I'm supposed to be doing science, but I haven't and I'm not. I was only going to have a bit of my giant lollipop but I ate half of it and now my tongue is purple and my fingers sticky. My room was going to be tidy and it was going to be an early night but now it's 12.01 and I know it's the weekend and I know it's not friday any more but I am happy and life is good so I am going to be grateful for that. I just thought I would share that with you. Simple, that's how I feel today :)

I hope your Friday has treated you as well as mine has and that you have a good weekend, thanks for reading guys :)

Georgina xx

A brain on overload and a misunderstood smile

I am so split. In two minds. Almost like two channels of my brain. On channel one I'm happy. I have the biggest smile, a big cheesy grin, for no reason, just because life is good and I have music and friends and sun. I feel like dancing around, singing in the shower, having one-way conversations with my cat. That's my favourite channel. The one I am trying to stay on.

Channel two. Negative. I am so stressed out. I have much to think about, if I do I just burst into tears. I can't even stop and leave it a few days. Even when I cry I have to work or get something ready, just because I know I don't have any time to waste. I just sit there with tears streaming down my face, finishing off my maths homework or revising science. I'm tired and moody. I have two language speaking exams next week and I have learnt nothing. I have two art exams to prepare for and no inspiration. Every evening I am doing something after school. I just need to STOP. Switch off. Relax. My brain is dead, I'm on autopilot. I hate it.

Today I even ignored someone. I never do that. I wasn't event thinking about anything. I was just asleep, trying to get a break from this stupid thing. I can't explain it. Nervous breakdown time.

Ahh les devoirs français

J'ai fatigué mais je dois travailler pour mes examens, je voudrais lire mon livre mais ce n'est pas possible parce que le français est plus important. Mais je suis aussi excité car en été j'irai au T4 sur la plage et à Venise avec ma maman. Je suis désolé pour le mauvais français!

Georgina x