Hardest of Hearts

I've never felt so down before. How can people make out this is so great and the best thing ever, I hate it. I want this feeling to go away. I just feel so shit and pointless. I don't want to do anything, I don't want to. What's the point? What's the point in anything to be honest if we're just gonna end up feeling like this. There's not even anything I can do, I wish I could go to the doctors and be diagnosed and given a miracle cure but it doesn't work like that. Nothing seems to work. Everything's so fucking shit however you look at it, you can be optimistic as much as you like but that doesn't change the fact that's it's all just bullshit. I just wish I didn't feel like this or there was something I could do. I'm hopeless. This desperate, useless, angering feeling that I'm so passionate about. I hate it but it's slowly becoming part of me. It's taking over without my consent. Fuck that.