Right now, I want to be a geek. I really really want to work hard, I don't care if I don't go out at the weekend, I don't want to be behind. A-levels are really hard and all I can think of is that if I don't work and get the right grades, then that's it. It's all over. I really would do anything to be a vet but I know it won't just come to me. You know when you're so passionate about something, but it's so far away and everything uncertain? It's horrible.