Go Fly a Kite

I really can't explain how I feel. I haven't felt this in ages. Just angry and stressed and everything bubbling up inside me. I feel sick and tired and like crying. I want to have an argument with someone. I don't know where this has come from, I can think of a million and one petty reasons. No sleep? Lack of exercise? Stress? Argh. Just this big fat ball of bad emotions has found its way inside me and I don't know how. So many small things that get on my nerves, some bigger things, to me anyway. And of course there's always a 'him' involved, what problem would be a true problem without a 'him'. Of course its the usual sitch where you're just the one just nodding and smiling, putting on a happy voice and giving everyone else advice. Everyone says they should take their own advice, but that's just silly because then there would be no drama and no attention and no winging. What would life be without complaining about it? We're all selfish dicks who only want to talk about themselves, I just wish some people would make it a little less obvious.

Put The Book Back On The Shelf

I apologise for this week's poor blogging, I'm tired and busy and generally stressed. Sixth form really isn't that great, I have loads of work already and that's on top of being a busy person and having a job. I will update you at the weekend but for now, I hope you're all ok and please bear with me while I get this week over and done with :)
Georgina xx

Bonne Chance

So this is it...GCSE results day. Good luck to you all although it's twenty to three in the morning when I'm writing this so you probably won't read it until after you've opened that dreaded envelope.

I've had an alright day, mixed in with lots of nerves, stress and conversations about what would be 'disappointing' or 'adequate' or 'my highest expectation'. I'll be completely honest with you now, I don't have too much to worry about, seeing as all GCSEs count for is getting into college/sixth form and I am in the nice posistion to have that pretty much granted. Buuuut...this doesn't stop me being nervous!




I went to young farmers tonight (I basically started going as I want to be a vet and thought it would look good on the old CV, I am starting to enjoy it though!) But anyway, yer it was just a meeting in the pub- I told them about results day to which their reaction was "You've gotta get wasted tonight" After lots of persuasion they bought me a coke- "because we don't want to make it too obvious but don't worry it's got something stronger in" Hahaha gotta love em :) I don't know what they put in it but it tasted pretty good :L

Huh, I'm so worried. I am excited though. This sounds weird but it feels like Christmas...because of the anticipation. The big build up to one small moment, like opening a present that you might be disappointed with and have to wait a whole year for another...opening that envelope could be good or bad, it doesn't have too much impact on your life but still means a lot. I dunno, I just hope I do as well as I want- I worked hard, I could've worked harder but you always can.

Good luck everyone, I hope you all get the results that you were hoping for.

Georgina xx

P.S. The original title of this post was 'bon chance' then I realised that's incorrect- now I'm shit scared about my french result!

A brain on overload and a misunderstood smile

I am so split. In two minds. Almost like two channels of my brain. On channel one I'm happy. I have the biggest smile, a big cheesy grin, for no reason, just because life is good and I have music and friends and sun. I feel like dancing around, singing in the shower, having one-way conversations with my cat. That's my favourite channel. The one I am trying to stay on.

Channel two. Negative. I am so stressed out. I have much to think about, if I do I just burst into tears. I can't even stop and leave it a few days. Even when I cry I have to work or get something ready, just because I know I don't have any time to waste. I just sit there with tears streaming down my face, finishing off my maths homework or revising science. I'm tired and moody. I have two language speaking exams next week and I have learnt nothing. I have two art exams to prepare for and no inspiration. Every evening I am doing something after school. I just need to STOP. Switch off. Relax. My brain is dead, I'm on autopilot. I hate it.

Today I even ignored someone. I never do that. I wasn't event thinking about anything. I was just asleep, trying to get a break from this stupid thing. I can't explain it. Nervous breakdown time.

Ahh les devoirs français

J'ai fatigué mais je dois travailler pour mes examens, je voudrais lire mon livre mais ce n'est pas possible parce que le français est plus important. Mais je suis aussi excité car en été j'irai au T4 sur la plage et à Venise avec ma maman. Je suis désolé pour le mauvais français!

Georgina x

Stress, I surrender

This is gonna be a quick one, just to say that stress has taken over, I have my Chemistry GCSE tomorrow and feel like I know nothing + physics on Wednesday and no time to revise, urgh. All this on top of feeling absolutely crappy and not having any more time left in the day.


(www.weheartit.com) If only I had time to sit with my head in my hands...

So sorry if I don't post for the next few days, I really want to do well in science and do not want to resit. I promise you I will have a really good post for you on Wednesday, I'll have to think of something first but I will make it worthwhile to make up for my bad blogging!

Thank you all so much for following and taking your time to read this + good luck to anyone with exams next week!

Georgina xx
I'm off to revise with The Surgery on R1 in the background, I love Aled :)