Go Fly a Kite

I really can't explain how I feel. I haven't felt this in ages. Just angry and stressed and everything bubbling up inside me. I feel sick and tired and like crying. I want to have an argument with someone. I don't know where this has come from, I can think of a million and one petty reasons. No sleep? Lack of exercise? Stress? Argh. Just this big fat ball of bad emotions has found its way inside me and I don't know how. So many small things that get on my nerves, some bigger things, to me anyway. And of course there's always a 'him' involved, what problem would be a true problem without a 'him'. Of course its the usual sitch where you're just the one just nodding and smiling, putting on a happy voice and giving everyone else advice. Everyone says they should take their own advice, but that's just silly because then there would be no drama and no attention and no winging. What would life be without complaining about it? We're all selfish dicks who only want to talk about themselves, I just wish some people would make it a little less obvious.

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I spose this is how it is...

You and I

Beautiful song, I learnt it on the ukulele today :)

Georgina xx

Man I Hate Your Baand

Sorry for the lack of posts, I've been lambing all week :) It's so fun, just being on a farm is nice because it's so relaxed and you get to be outside all day. Plus I got to miss school for a week for driving a quad bike and walking round fields! It's not everyone's cup of tea but I love it :) I also get on really well with the farmer and his girlfriend, they're so friendly and laid back. They probably got fed up of me haha, I just talked the whole time and kept doing things wrong :P but it was a good week, I'm just dreading going back to school now :/

True

“What we do for ourselves dies with us. What we do for others and the world remains and is immortal.” -Albert Pine.

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I'm a happy chappy. I've had a good week. Last week was long and slow and boring with no motivation and a lack of smiles. This weeks has been varied, it's gone quickly and lots has come out of it.

Thursday was As level results day. It also happened to be the same day I had a course for work so when everyone found out their results, I was sat in a room listening to some old guy waffle on about common sense. I could have rung the school but I couldn't stand the thought of someone reading my results to me! I went in at the end of the day and had to painfully wait while the teacher searched through every list trying to find my name.

I'll be honest I was expecting the worst, I'm aiming for As but was expecting Ds and Es. In the end I got AAB (As in Physics and Biology and B in Chemistry) which I was pretty chuffed with :) I'll have to resit the B which seems pathetic but I really do need an A to be a vet! As for the A in physics, that's a miracle! I cant wait to see my cocky teacher who told me I would never get an A however hard I worked.

As for the rest of the year group, there's a lot of disappointment. I've never heard so many Us and Es going round the place, it's mental. Thank God for resits!

Hope you're all good you were pleased with any results you've got recently :)

Thanks for reading,

Georgina xx

Cause I have other things to fill my time...

Day 14 - A picture of your favorite pastime.
Thinking, dreaming, sleeping. Not really pastimes but that's what I like to do.
I think loads. I've never thought of it as a bad thing really but when looking for all these photos on www.weheartit.com it was generally portrayed as something not to be done if trying to avoid stress or worry. I think it helps your worries. If you put everything to the back of your mind then nothing will be solved but thinking and problem solving is the way to go.
As for dreaming, this is a weird one. I dream loads. I'm starting to think this is medication related but I won't go into that one. It's odd. Sometimes it's nice, some days I wake up in the morning in the best mood simply because of my dream, other days I just have loads of stories to tell and things to laugh at. But sometimes I wake up feeling like rather than getting a good night's sleep, I've just been busy the whole time and haven't had any rest at all.
Sleeping is nice. Pretty much the only way to get rid of that 'I just want to curl up in a ball and hibernate' feeling is by doing that. I could sleep forever.
And now just to be arrogant and quote myself: I was walking with my friend through school earlier and she went off ahead so I tried to explain what happened and said "I always get caught up in the cloud." Even though I meant to say 'crowd' I thought it summed me up quite well.
So oui, that's all from me, I have sleeping to do and probably some thinking and worrying too, plus I will undoubtedly have lots of dreams :)

Georgina xx